My L.O.V.E obsession...S-H-O-E-Ssssss

Happy Thursday! 


{I don't know if it's a good thing that the days seem to be passing by really fast! Maybe it is a good thing...that way I can get to a "better place" sooner!!...enough rant!}


So, if you know me, you know that I love fashion...I love everything about personal style...and that my own personal style has evolved throughout the last 10+ years (thank gawd!)...non-the-less, I love fashion {except fur...NO fur EVER!}. One of my major obsession with fashion are those things that go on your feet....yes...SHOES! I am a shoe-gal...forever in love with shoes.


Lately, I am obsessed with Jeffrey Campbell and his AMAZE designs!!! I love platform shoes, and even though I am already 5'7", I love strutting in shoes that make me taller! Specifically, I am in love the LITA. I want a pair in every color!!! Let's hope I get to a "better place" soon so I can indulge in some beautiful decorations for my feet!


~~@ Yenifer

".. its not so much about the shoes, but the person wearing them"


**images taken from shopnastygal.com

Extract from Maria's Diary...

Today, while we were walking around the lake, along, that strange road to Santiago, the man who was with me- a painter, with a life entirely different from mine- threw a pebble into the water. Small circles appeared where the pebble fell, which grew and grew until they touched a duck that happened to be passing and which had nothing to do with the pebble. Instead of being afraid of that unexpected wave, he decided to play with it.


Some hours before that scene, I went into a cafe, heard a voice, and it was as if God had thrown a pebble into that place. The waves of energy touched both me and a man sitting in a corner painting a portrait. He felt the vibrations, and so did I. So what now?


The painter knows when he has found a model. The musician knows knows when his instrument is well tuned. here, in my diary, I am aware that there are certain phrases which are not written by me, but by a woman full of "light"; I am that woman though I refuse to accept it.


I could carry on like this, but I could also, like the duck on the lake, have fun and take pleasure in that sudden ripple that set the water rocking.


There is a name for that pebble: passion. It can be used to describe the beauty of an earth-shaking meeting between two people, but it isn't just that. It's there in the excitement of the unexpected, in the desire to do something with real fervor, in the certainty that one is going to realize a dream. Passion sends us signals that guide us through our lives, and it is up to me to interpret those signs.


I would like to believe that i'm in love. With someone I don't know and who didn't figure in my plans at all. All these months of self-control, of denying love,  have had exactly the opposite result: I have let myself be swept away by the first person to treat me a little differently.


It's just as well I don't have his phone number, that I don't know where he lives; that way I can lose him without having to blame myself for another missed opportunity.


And if that is what happens, if I have already lost him, I will have gained one very happy day in my life. Considering the way the world is, one happy day is almost a miracle. 

"One" Does Not Have To Be A Lonely Number

I have been absent! 


I have no excuses or explanations as to why I have somewhat abandoned my blog...but I have missed it. I feel like this blog is a DIY project, almost like redecorating my room; I want to work on it, I need to work on it, but at times the motivation is not there. I'm not going to lie, sometimes I lack motivation....LYFE happens! There is tons on my mind at the moment but sometimes it's hard to put to put in in ink. I have been journaling since the age of 13 and I never want to lose that gift. Blogging is something that I recently discovered and I have tons of ideas to turn my precious little blog into something I truly enjoy and into something other people can enjoy!!! I hope that the motivation never leaves but I am sure that lyfe will give me moments where I just need to...BE.


I came across this video titled "How to be Alone" by Tanya Davis. For me it's a reminder that my need to spend time on my own is not a bad thing! Sometimes I just want it to be Me and my Thoughts. Alone.

HOW TO BE ALONE by Tanya Davis

If you are at first lonely, be patient. If you've not been alone much, or if when you were, you weren't okay with it, then just wait. You'll find it's fine to be alone once you're embracing it.

We could start with the acceptable places, the bathroom, the coffee shop, the library. Where you can stall and read the paper, where you can get your caffeine fix and sit and stay there. Where you can browse the stacks and smell the books. You're not supposed to talk much anyway so it's safe there.

There's also the gym. If you're shy you could hang out with yourself in mirrors, you could put headphones in (guitar stroke).

And there's public transportation, because we all gotta go places.

And there's prayer and meditation. No one will think less if you're hanging with your breath seeking peace and salvation.

Start simple. Things you may have previously (electric guitar plucking) based on your avoid being alone principals.

The lunch counter. Where you will be surrounded by chow-downers. Employees who only have an hour and their spouses work across town and so they -- like you -- will be alone.

Resist the urge to hang out with your cell phone.

When you are comfortable with eat lunch and run, take yourself out for dinner. A restaurant with linen and silverware. You're no less intriguing a person when you're eating solo dessert to cleaning the whipped cream from the dish with your finger. In fact some people at full tables will wish they were where you were.

Go to the movies. Where it is dark and soothing. Alone in your seat amidst a fleeting community.
And then, take yourself out dancing to a club where no one knows you. Stand on the outside of the floor till the lights convince you more and more and the music shows you. Dance like no one's watching...because, they're probably not. And, if they are, assume it is with best of human intentions. The way bodies move genuinely to beats is, after all, gorgeous and affecting. Dance until you're sweating, and beads of perspiration remind you of life's best things, down your back like a brook of blessings.

Go to the woods alone, and the trees and squirrels will watch for you.
Go to an unfamiliar city, roam the streets, there're always statues to talk to and benches made for sitting give strangers a shared existence if only for a minute and these moments can be so uplifting and the conversations you get in by sitting alone on benches might've never happened had you not been there by yourself

Society is afraid of alonedom, like lonely hearts are wasting away in basements, like people must have problems if, after a while, nobody is dating them. but lonely is a freedom that breaths easy and weightless and lonely is healing if you make it.

You could stand, swathed by groups and mobs or hold hands with your partner, look both further and farther for the endless quest for company. But no one's in your head and by the time you translate your thoughts, some essence of them may be lost or perhaps it is just kept.

Perhaps in the interest of loving oneself, perhaps all those sappy slogans from preschool over to high school's groaning were tokens for holding the lonely at bay. Cuz if you're happy in your head than solitude is blessed and alone is okay.

It's okay if no one believes like you. All experience is unique, no one has the same synapses, can't think like you, for this be releived, keeps things interesting lifes magic things in reach.

And it doesn't mean you're not connected, that communitie's not present, just take the perspective you get from being one person in one head and feel the effects of it. take silence and respect it. if you have an art that needs a practice, stop neglecting it. if your family doesn't get you, or religious sect is not meant for you, don't obsess about it.

You could be in an instant surrounded if you needed it. If your heart is bleeding make the best of it. There is heat in freezing, be a testament.

...from Maria's Diary, one night when she lacked the courage to go out, to live or to continue waiting for the phone call that never came:

I spent today outside a fun fair. Since I can't afford to fritter my money away, I thought it best just to watch other people. I stood for a long time by the roller coaster, and I noticed that most people get on it in search for excitement, but that once it starts, they are terrified and want the cars to stop.


What do they expect? Having chosen adventure, shouldn't they be prepared to go the whole way? Or do they think that the intelligent thing to do would be to avoid the up's and down's and spend all their time on a carousel, going round and round on the spot?


At the moment, i'm far too lonely to think about love, but I have to believe that it will happen, that I will find a job and that I am here because I chose this fate. The roller coaster is my life; life is a fast, dizzying game; life is a parachute jump; it's taking chances, falling over and getting up again; it's mountaineering; it's wanting to get to the very top of yourself and to feel angry and dissatisfied when you don't manage.


It isn't easy being far from my family and from the language in which I can express all my feelings and emotions, but, from now on, whenever I feel depressed, I will remember that fun fair. If I had fallen asleep and suddenly woken up on a roller coaster, what would I feel?


Well, I would feel trapped and sick, terrified of every bend, wanting to get off. However, if I believe that the track is my destiny and that God is in charge of the machine, then the nightmare becomes something thrilling. It becomes exactly what it is, a roller coaster, a safe, reliable toy, which will eventually stop, but, while the journey lasts, I must look at the surrounding landscape and whoop with excitement.


From Eleven Minutes

My Beauty Essentials.

I LOVE red lipstick and this one right here is thee BEST!! M.A.C Ruby Woo is a matte rich lipstick that I layer on, depending on how much coverage I want. I've had this stick for about two years and it is well worth the $14.50 price! It is the perfect RED.

This honey dust is something I decided to add to my list of essentials for the reason that it is light, sweet, and I've had it for a long time. Its from Urban Decay, which is a makeup line I really like. It's good enough for daily use because it goes on light and it gives a subtle glow...nothing to glittery*. It's also edible soooooo it serves as a seductive flirty tool if need be!!! The price is a bit high at $29.00 but it's worth it because it will last a long time!! You can use it everyday or for special occasion...it also comes in Cocoa & Marshmallow scent!!

This is my absolute FAVORITE mascara of all time!!! I've tried others and always keep coming back to this one. L'Oreal Voluminous in Carbon Black never disappoints, it's the darkest black, richest, thickest mascara i've found at the drugstore. In my opinion, the closest to it is Dior Show mascara but at $7.50 L'Oreal is good to my wallet!! It makes my lashes thick without looking clumpy and it enhances my naturally long lashes. {Sidenote:: I recently tried their Million Lashes, that's a few dollars more only to realize that it still does not beat the original Voluminous!!} I will remain faithful to this mascara!!...{Now if only they made it in blue and purple!!} 

Avon is such a great thing!! And these fruity lip balms have been a part of my life since I was kid and my mom was an "Avon Lady" I use them everyday and they work great on chapped lips. Look in my makeup bag and you will find at least one of these flavors inside. The light fruity smell is so nostalgic, it makes me smile** {Cherry has got to be my favorite} At $0.98 I tend to buy these in bulk!!!

M.A.C Carbon Black Eyeshadow is my perfect eyeliner. I like things that last a long time, and I don't mind paying a higher price! This eyeshadow will last me for a while, goes on smooth and does not run....so at the end of the day I don't end up looking like a raccoon! At $14.50 it's worth the price if I know that I will have it for a while...and if I want some serious smokey eye, I can layer it on!!

This is my new best friend! Revlon Just Bitten Lipstain + Balm, it's like a marker for your lips!! It has staying power so I put it on and it will last me for a few hours...even if I drink or eat! It is the coolest thing that has recently come out, and the price is not bad, $7.69. I have it in two colors, this one here is Passion and it's a rosy pink tone that makes my lips look perfectly and naturally PINK! If it feels too dry then it has an attached clear balm at the other end...voila! perfection! I love color markers...now I have color markers for my lips!!

 Can you tell I love the color Red? Red lipstick, lipstain...and this cheek stain by Tarte in Flush. It is definitely a must have for me...Why? Because it will last me for a while, therefore the price is worth it! It is a water based gel tint that gives me a natural flushed look. It's makeup for those days that I don't want to wear makeup! At around $30.00, the price may be a bit high, but I really like the natural rosy cheeks that this tint gives me, therefore I recommend it!

My beauty essentials wouldn't be complete without mentioning the importance of having a skin regimen! I have been using moisturizer since I was around 17 years old, which is when I really started to wear makeup. My mother was the "Avon Lady" and she taught me the importance of taking care of my skin and of aging gracefully!! Now, in my 30's I am so grateful for that knowledge because my skin has almost no sign of aging {I know some women who are in their mid 20's with wrinkles} Avon is a great thing, I say it all the time! They have products for every age group, and now as I welcome my 30's, this line of skin care is something I never go without!! Avon Anew is a line of quality products that keep my skin looking and feeling great. I've been lucky to have inherited good skin, combination skin, I've never had a problem with acne or oily/dry skin. But sadly as you age you have to become consistent with your skin care. This works for me and the price is well worth it because it's not as expensive as department store brands and I know that it's good quality! I am OK with investing between $12-$35 to keep my skin looking good!!

One of my most important beauty MUST HAVE's is Groomed Eyebrows!!!!!!!!!!! Whatever you have to do to have perfectly groomed eyebrows is an essential! Whether you go to a pricey salon or to the corner nail shop; or if you DIY; tweezing, waxing, threading.....It is an important "must" that EVERY woman should do. Groomed eyebrows will give your face structure and will make your eyes stand out. I can't state this enough...I am anal when it comes to my eyebrows AND it is the first thing I notice when I look at a female. {If she has ugly eyebrows it makes me want to have a heart-to-heart with her} Price is not option for beautiful, clean brows!

...from Maria's Diary, when she was seventeen:

My aim is to understand love. I know how alive I felt when I was in love, and I know that everything I have now, however interesting it might seem, doesn't really excite me.

But love is a terrible thing: I've seen my girlfriends suffer and I don't want the same thing to happen to me. They used to laugh at me and my innocence, but now they ask me how it is I manage men so well. I smile and say nothing, because I know that the remedy is worse than the pain: I simply don't fall in love. With each day that passes, I see more clearly how fragile men are, how inconstant, insecure and surprising they are...a few of my girlfriend's fathers have propositioned me, but I've always refused. At first, I was shocked, but now I think it's just the way men are.

Although my aim is to understand love, and although I suffer to think of the people to whom I gave my heart, I see that those who touched my heart failed to arouse my body, and those who aroused my body failed to touch my heart.


From Eleven Minutes

Ode to ::Chanel::

{When I am strutting around the streets with this bag, I will know that I have made it.}

My love for Chanel began a long time ago, my love for FASHION started when I was around 13 and I would watch the canadian show Fashion TV...I became obsessed with the runway shows and with Parisian fashion...I also became obsessed with Paris and everything French! Chanel stood out amongst the rest because it represented everything feminine, beautiful, classic, and stylish! Chanel represented the essence of WOMEN. The iconic Double C's have stood the test of time and although Mademoiselle Chanel was gone long before the fashion house entered my life, Monsieur Lagerfeld has done the house justice!! I hope to become a collector of beautiful things, and collecting beautiful Chanel pieces will be the QUEEN of my eclectic closet!!

{Chanel-esque} is the term I use when I am rocking the Black & White look or when I am rocking the LBD. My style is very eclectic; yet I definitely embrace some of the classics, such as the :Red Lipstick: Ray-Ban Aviators: Black & White: LBD: